From an Okay Night to a Sucky Night

Why is that when you try to have a good time, someone has to go and mess it up. Life is funny, you think one way and then life comes around and smacks you like saying NOPE, NOPE, you cant have it your way. Im wondering if anyone will ever read this but its hard to put things on the internet not knowing. Im just gonna go for it. Lets start off slow. Lets just say there are these two people in my life, who I love to death, but I cannot stand them sometimes. Tonight has completely and truly showed me that I can never go out with them again and that alcohol is always bad news. Im not much of a drinker so I never understood the need for some people to go out every weekend and drink. I don't know who thought it would be fun to say "WHOOOO lets go get effed up and make bad decisions that we'll regret in the morning!" Now of course Im not a saint, I've had my share of a drink but after a couple of really bad nights I've definitely learned my lesson that I should stay away from the drink. Its really not for me. I just wish some people would know that the drink is not for them as well. These two people......my god.....they need to stop ASAP. They're the kind of drinkers that once they start they don't stop until they're fighting with someone. Its extremely annoying to be around something like that all the time. Ive tried to tell people around me that these two people drive me nuts but all I hear is that I need to ignore them. How can you when they piss you off so much that you want to go and do stupid things. I swear I never get more pissed than when I have to be around them when they're drunk. I bet whoever is reading this is saying "then stop talking to them, its that simple!" I wish that were true but things are more complicated than that. I won't go into detail but you've probably figured out who these two people are. If you didn't...well lets just say everyone has these two people to deal with whether you like it or not. It's just a part of life. OH LIFE, how wonderful yet extremely frustrating you can be sometimes but thats LIFE. I feel better. Thanks for reading.

Life

Well I just found out the news today that my maternal grandmother has died. She died a week ago and she is already buried in Nicaragua. I don't understand why it hurts so much when I never got the chance to meet her. Maybe I knew her and felt her somehow but I think it might be that I just feel terrible for my mom. My mom never got to say her goodbye to her mother and that just breaks my heart. I have this eerie feeling that my grandmother has been around us trying to let us know that she is okay. Lately, the lights have been flickering, turning on and off when that has never happened before in this house. Maybe its her way saying nice to meet you. I hope my grandmother led a great life with all her kids and grandchildren surrounding her. I heard that she might have died from a bad heart which I take as her having tremendous amounts of love to offer. I know that if I would have met her I would have received a lot of that unconditional love. I wish I could have met you but we will meet one day but for now rest in peace grandmother.

Friends

There are good friends and there are bad friends. Why do most of us still hang on to those bad friends? You know that they always let you down and never apologize for it. I'm still hanging on to those bad friends hoping that one day they will change. Tonight proved that will never happen. People always let you down. I always thought if you were nice to people, people would do the same. I guess I was wrong. Although people are not nice to me I shall continue to be nice to the people that actually deserve it. Its time to be a new person.

A Thought.

It is 12:45 am on January 20, 2012. I am 22 years old. As of now I see myself as being kind of old for this world. I have a feeling that when I'm 40 and reading this I'm going to think I was crazy. What is crazy is how life goes by so fast and you don't even notice. It was just 5 years ago that I was a senior in high school and had all the opportunity in the world to do something I have a passion for. Well when you come from the family I come from, passion is not a huge priority as it should be. Follow your dreams because the time might come where you won't be able to.

The First Post

My critical thinking/ethics class brought me to create this blog. Maybe this will be a way to express myself, to show my true self to the world. By writing words on this blog I will be able to create a new world for myself helping me to get out of my head. This WILL be a good thing, although I have heard terrible things about the internet. Lets do it.